May I be safe in Hekate's embrace...

Glorious Hekate! Eternal Maiden who is Mother of All! You are our Mother as part of being the Soul of the World. For some of us, life goes along paths that lead us back to You before it is time for us to join our Ancestors in the Otherworld. Some call us Your Chosen Children, some call us Your Adopted Children.There's a lot to that. Truth, flaws, meaning...a lot. What I do know is that I call You Mother.

Mother Hekate, I turn to You now because I am feeling trapped in panic and fear. You know my prayers, and not just when I pray to You. You know the times I seek comfort from Great and Wild Pan when it comes to panic. You know where my terror originates, and how it spawns the anxiety that grows into panic. I see the patterns in those things, and my helplessness when it comes to having enough influence or authority to change any of it...and the fear and panic grow. If it goes on this way, the terror will end me before the other things do.

Mother, I need to be free of this. I want to give more to You - to all the Kindreds - and it causes me pain that these other things paralyze, entangle, and limit me. It makes sense to me that it should perhaps be my Ancestors I mostly turn to for help with these things, but You know my relationships with them when they were living, as well as my relationships with them now that they are of the Beloved and Mighty Dead. Even to be able to go to them with these issues, I ask for Your help.

I pour out offerings for You at the crossroads. I give offerings upon the altar. I pray to You. None of that means I would dare think that You owe me. There are spirits I may agree to such a relationship with, but You, Mother Hekate...You did so much before I knew it was You. And even if You had never done those things, You simply ARE. If this was ever to be a question of debt, it would be myself who owes You. It is simply that I do give and wish to give more. I need help for that to be possible. I need safety. I need a healthy environment. I need to be free of the things that have been holding me back and holding me down.

It is too dark for me to see the road, and dread and terror keep grabbing me. Mother - Hekate Lampadios - please guide me with Your torches. Illuminate the path and keep me safe so I can get to where I need to be.