Prayer Beads

Sometimes I think to replace my prayer beads with something fancier. I pay attention to choices of materials, colors, the spacing...I look for options where the numbers would be meaningful. Something inside me says my devotional practice of prayer should include beautiful beads because You are so glorious!

Every time, I feel that nudge to stick with the beads I already use. I've asked why many times. Today, I felt the answer enter my awareness. Because I made those prayer beads. I chose the beads and the cord. I tied the knots. I gave meaning to the numbers are the spacing. I did the work with the wire to attach the key. And I have prayed with them to You over and over. They are simple. That doesn't mean they aren't beautiful. They are an offering on multiple levels.

It's difficult for me to see my own work as being worthy as an offering to You, but I also see a major flaw in that thinking. I see how that leads to questions about why I would give it at all if it isn't worthy. Giving offering means I do see it as worthy, so how could it not be beautiful? Misapplied humility is just repeating some of the emotional harm others have done to me. Recognizing the beauty of my handmade offerings is healing.

Thank You, Mother Hekate. Thank You for nurturing me so that I may heal. Thank You for accepting my offerings. Thank You for the blessings You give, both through active blessing and the blessing of just being. Thank You.