Triform Goddess

I am debating with myself how to meditate in a way that aids processing and understanding, not escaping. I see that there is so much to meditate on about You, and today I would like to take this time to look at what it means that You are a triform goddess.

I have prayed to You before (and I'm sure I will again) about why I don't really like the concept of Maiden-Mother-Crone, and why I don't see it fitting Your mythology, yet still see You in those roles in various ways. Sometimes it's not much easier to free my way of thinking of a deity as fitting certain boundaries and definitions than it is to squeeze my understanding of a deity into those boundaries. Either is, in its own way, an attempt to limit One who cannot be limited by what human minds comprehend. And You, Glorious Hekate, are not only so much bigger than the boundaries could ever be, but also rule the areas of the boundaries. As humans, we must define You in order to recognize and worship You. But You are undefinable.

There are so many other ways that I see You as a triform goddess. You know it's not just that I think of You in threes, but in nines. Three threes. I suppose that could be about me seeing many sets of three related to you. Something that has been on my mind a lot lately is You being the goddess of Earth, Sea, and Sky. Also, how that relates to, but is still different from, You as Ourania, Cthonia, and Enalia.

Earth, Sea, and Sky are very tangible and physical for me. My druidry is shown in how I think of those things. I think of the Underworld as an Otherworld, and my Welsh ancestors whisper to remind me how Annwfyn would translate into English for me. It is still difficult for me sometimes to comprehend how the scientific physical world and the spirit worlds overlap, cross, and meet. In my mind, Earth is the very soil and rock I walk on, though goes much deeper than I can truly visualize. Sea is all the waters of the planet. Lakes, rivers, oceans, trickling creeks, ponds, the rain...the waters. Sky is the air we breathe, the sky that airplanes fly through, where the clouds form...everything above us within our planet's atmosphere. It also goes beyond that, and I'm not sure at what point I feel Sky becomes Cosmos, or if it's that simple. Cosmos itself has multiple meanings for me.

Always when I think in those terms, the order is Earth, Sea, and Sky. And Earth does, in some ways, include the Underworld/Otherworld. Sea becomes where Earth and Sky meet and form the physical world. Oh, but I don't think of the ground they are buried in when I think of my ancestors. I think of pools, wells, rivers, streams... the fluidity of time, the bloodline, the flow of consciousness and wisdom, deep wells and pools that nourish. So is it not Sea that I associate with the Underworld? Can it be both? I give these things a lot of thought. I don't know if I'm getting any closer to answers.

When it comes to Your epithets, though, in prayer I always put Your names in the order of Ourania, Cthonia, Enalia. That would be the order of Sky, Earth, Sea. And Enalia is the only one of those three of Your names that I would say really lines up with how I see what it corresponds with. When I call You Ourania, that isn't as simple to me as Sky (which really isn't so simple). That's the border of the transition I'm not sure about...where Sky becomes Cosmos. And I'm not saying I believe that's how the name translates, but it does seem appropriate for me to think of You that way. Cthonia is difficult in the exact same way the word "cthonic" is difficult for me. Same difficulty, same reason. I don't think the issue is me needing to decide which understanding is most accurate. I think it's that my comprehension needs to grow. My thoughts of Earth and Underworld are still very limited, whereas my understandings of Sea and Sky allow for Enalia and Ourania to make more sense to me. I pray for Your wisdom to be blessed upon me when I am ready for it.

This is only the beginning of my quest for greater understanding of You as a triform goddess. I pray that You guide me along the path, and I thank You for leading me to it. Hail, Glorious and Mighty Hekate!