Trust

Khaire Glorious Hekate! Mother, I am aware of the visitors, but I admit I am having trouble receiving the message. So I turned to the cards tonight...

I am still unclear on who is contacting me.

I now understand the places in the dreams to be about my childhood development. Places where my potential success was interrupted by judgement. That is, as You know, not a surprise for me.

And then there is the last part...to trust You and let myself be open for receiving Your blessings. Glorious Hekate...Mother and Keeper of the Keys... I want to say I do trust You! I want to believe that!

But, of course, You have always guided me toward being honest with myself. And the more the honesty might hurt, the more important it is that I be so honest.

On the surface, I think I do trust You. I trust You more than anyone else. I have issues with trust, though. I protect myself by not trusting completely. Maybe that isn't such a foolish choice in many cases. I certainly learned it in very painful ways, and I might have avoided some of them by trusting a little less. With You, though, Mother... I want to have that deep trust! I want the walls of my own self-doubt to fall! I know that's part of my lack of trust, or me withholding the trust.

Being honest and admitting these things about myself is me taking a step toward that deeper trust.