The Hermit

Khaire Hekate!

I feel Your guidance in my greater work, and I am thankful. You know, though, how lost I feel in one of my personal relationships. You know how I was conditioned to believe this must be my fault, the therapy I went through to teach me otherwise, and how I struggle when those two different ways of programming me to function in the physical world clash with each other.

And so I look to You. And as I look for the light You carry to lead me, I think of The Hermit card in tarot. I don't think of the esoteric symbolism, but simply of the picture of the robed Hermit carrying the lantern in the dark.

She who loves solitude, and finds peace in the wilderness with the deer.

I first heard Your call when I was too lost to seek guidance. Demeter went to find You all alone so that she could ask You to guide her to Persephone. In many ways, Mother, You are The Hermit.

This personal relationship problem... Someone I love, who is very dear to me, has pulled deep into themself. But being alone like that is dangerous for them now, as it is depression that has drawn them into themself and continues to whisper little lies to them. And all of this has the effect of leaving me alone, as well. But I know I have guidance. I can turn to You, and to the Guides You have blessed me with, and to the tools You have taught me to use. This other person has no guidance, and there is a great risk of this storm of depression doing even more damage before it lets up. They have told me before that one of the reasons they turn away from me is because I guide them. Because the depression pushes them to savotage themself. With the fear and worry this has stressed me with, this separation harms both of us.

It also all highlights for me how blessed I am to have Your guidance. I thank You, Glorious Hekate!