Patterns in Prayers

Khaire Hekate! Most favored among the Immortals!

I sometimes wonder how much that means when I say it. Or what it means and in what way. It seems like everything is different when it comes from me because I'm... different. It's my nature.

I don't claim to have Hellenic practice because...well, I don't. I see that as more than just which Immortal Ones are honored. It's in the ways of honoring, and in the ways of understanding. It's not me. And I don't identify my faith as Hellenic for the same reasons. If it needs to be identified at all, I identify it as Hekatean. I am devoted to You as You guide me to understand You. I keep my promise to Hermes. I honor Pan at times, and also the Moirai. On certain occasions I have honored others. My devotion is to You.

So, yes... You are honored by Zeus. But how does that matter when said by someone who has no relationship with Zeus? Does it matter that I know such a thing and respect what it means in a culture that I am not part of? 

I think a lot about how prayer matters. I see patterns in my practices. I see that I am returning to honoring Ganesha. I wonder sometimes...do the Immortal Ones associate with each other across cultures? I would guess the lines of culture mostly matter for relationships between the Immortals and humans, but I don't really know. Oh, but even if someone could give me some proof that those are hard and bold lines for the Immortals, I would probably still question whether or not it would be true for You. And it would make sense to think You and Ganesha would know each other well.

And now, this time, honoring Ganesha seems to be leading me toward honoring Matsya. This is such an odd experience of learning for me. At the same time, that is me...odd learning is somehow the norm. And what would I expect from Immortal gatekeepers of the liminal spaces?

But I stand by what I have said before. None of this is to take me away from You. Not by drifting away. If it is Your intention that I must journey away in order to return, then so be it. But if You do not want me to journey away at all, then it must not be so. It is to You that I am devoted. I feel kind of like I'm wandering in the dark here, so I trust Your guidance.