Open Crossroads

Mother, You must know how I prayed today. And right now, everything is still too much. But there was a moment tonight when it felt like the Crossroads was open. That moment of having such a small creature at the beginning of her life sleep so peacefully in the same arm where someone else slept through most of the last day of his life.

I expect I'll pray more about him later. The pain is too much now. I'm scared to wake up tomorrow, Mother. And I know I'm burying a lot because it's coming faster and harder than I can process it. I know it will hit me later. Please hold me and guide me when it does.

I'm scared of who I might be without him. Eight years with him was such a blessing! I'm thankful for having been chosen.

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