Gratitude

Khaire Hekate! I want to use multiple titles for You here, but only one is really in my heart right now... Mother. 

There are many reasons to question my understanding of the Immortal Ones. Some of those reasons are about terror and expectations, and probably wouldn't seem like any reason for doubt if circumstances were different. Other reasons would always be valid, as they are more about my quest for understanding.

I don't really question whether or not You exist, though. Not all of the doubts and questions about other Immortal Ones apply to You, and some that do don't apply in the same ways. I don't know that I really understand You any better than Others, but I believe in You as Anima Mundi even if I get everything else wrong. 

That's something I'm grateful for right now, Mother. I'm terrified. I don't know what will happen. No one ever really does, but most people don't have reasons to think about that, to question it. Right now, though... The way things are, and the effects that come from it, sometimes I'm afraid that just looking too close at the fear is too much of a risk. But I know You are here. That alone matters. I don't have the words to explain why, but it does. 

I am grateful that You exist.