Unresolved Past

Mother Hekate... Sometimes I question why I call You Mother. I don't want to make the mistake of simply repeating things from the dominant religion in a new way. But You have seen me through so much, and I treasure Your guidance and our bond. I comitted myself to You in a way that I haven't with other Shining Ones since I started along this path. It is meaningful - deeply meaningful - for me to call You Mother. 

Maybe my mind went in that direction because it has to do with the past, and how the past influences the future.

I explained our current situation when I was in the temple tonight. I'm calling for help from everyone I can - Shining Ones, Mighty and Beloved Ancestors, Spirits, and even just helpful thoughts and wishes from those who are living but cannot help in any other way. I've made the same proposal to Hermes as I did the last time we moved. 

The card I drew for guidance from You was the card of Unresolved Past. There's a lot of that mixed in with our current situation. There's the man I've never truly met and didn't have good feelings about in the past who was a major part of why we had to leave. We've all had some time to learn to see him differently now. There's the healing we can experience by going back, even though it won't be back to the farm.

There's my personal past. How moving makes me feel because of what it brings back emotionally from leaving my two homes, and how that can play into returning to that second home. I know the healing will come with things that aren't all comfortable. I also know it will be worth it. I know this would not be the same as a return to The Lake, but it's a different kind of lake, and one that I have stood in and loved. To have that physical bond with the water again!

There's also unresolved past for other members of the family. This can give them the stability that's needed for resolving it, if they choose to do so. And some of it would simply be resolved by being able to move to this place that we want.

Moving away from here will remove us from the unresolved past of the town, and of the man who will be taking the building back.

I feel like there's something bigger happening than simply us having to move. It feels like the move being forced upon us is simply the catalyst for whatever is really happening.

We're ready to go home.