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Still Confused

Mother Hekate, I am still confused about what is happening. I don't know if I'm doing things the right way. I don't know where the boundaries are. I remind myself when I worry about it that I may not see the path, but I do trust You to guide me.  The idea of getting a different view of the water has led me to some interesting research. I'm learning things about the Mediterranean Sea that fit with other ideas in ways that make sense. Trying to research some of those ideas hasn't led me to more information yet, and that includes not finding anything that counters or disproves those ideas. Some of this is so ancient that I know I may have to accept there being no documentation to support or counter these ideas. What I worry about most is not knowing where the boundaries are when it comes to serving You versus serving other Immortal Ones. Boundaries were shown to me with Hermes. That seems funny when I think about it, but also teaches a lesson. He is often talked about ...
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A Different View of the Water

Khaire Hekate Einalia!  Mother, I may have forgotten what this was like in the beginning. When I only knew You as Kleidoukhos, and barely knew You at all. When I could not see Your torches, and didn't know what all the keys were about. I get frustrated because I don't really understand what's going on now. I get frustrated with myself. I start thinking I should be learning and understand faster, and building a more meaningful relationship with the Immortal One I've been introduced to. But then I remember how it took a few years even once I did know You. My guess, at this point, is that I am to be experiencing the Water from a different point of view. That I cannot understand Water more fully if always approaching the same way. Maybe that's all of it, or maybe there's more as my understanding grows. Yes, I get laughed at because of how I love Water. It doesn't matter. In this case, the love is too great for me to care who laughs.
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Purpose

Mother Hekate, I don't know why I'm here. I don't mean "why I exist". I don't believe each individual is created for a specific purpose. Like everything else in the universe, we come into existence as part of an ongoing series of events. We just happen. It's what we do with the existence that matters.  I do believe it's possible to be chosen for a purpose. I don't believe being chosen makes someone "better" than others, or somehow "pure". I believe it happens because something about that person makes them qualified for what they were chosen for. To think it makes them a "better person" somehow would be like saying a professional athlete is a better person than everyone who isn't a professional athlete. What I don't understand is why I am where I am in my life. What it is that I can do here. It seems like I have survived too much that wasn't meant to be survived for it to make sense for me to end up as trapp...
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Time for a change?

Glorious Hekate, I come to You with this question because this is Your space. I won't make a change unless I recognize I am being given an answer to do so. Even then, Mother, You know me... I'd probably question it for a while.  I am not a Hellenist. I have honored others, and I have worked with others, but my dedication is to You. I express that dedication in a variety of ways, with a variety of influences. And now others known first by a different culture come into things. I don't know if I should keep this space as a hekatesion, or transform it into a temple that would include that diversity. I still have that feeling that You are guiding me, but I don't know yet where You are guiding me to. I don't know why I'm being guided there. Even if I did know, I would not change this space without putting the idea before You first.  This is Your space, Mother. I will do what You want done.
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The World Hurts

Mother Hekate, Soul of the World... Well, it seems kind of ridiculous to tell You how the world is hurting after I've just addressed You that way. That's all I really know how to say, though. The world is hurting.  I can't even say the people in power are the only ones not afraid. They must be. When you get power the way they do, it makes sense that you'd always be afraid of what happens if you can't hold onto it. They must care about that even if they don't care about anything else.  Why can't people understand how very tiny this planet is in the scope of the universe? If they would look at it that way, I hope they would understand all humans are family. All life on Earth is family. Actually, I guess when things really get into what it's all made of, how it all develops...Earth is a very small part of the universe family. Every life is a relative. But we just keep turning on each other, tormenting and abusing each other... We're all in pain. We'...
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Khaire Hekate!

Khaire Hekate! Mistress of the Three Realms, Keeper of the Keys, Soul of the World!  You are most honored among the Immortal Ones, and I am blessed in Your presence. Glorious Hekate - Ourania, Khthonia, Einalia - gladden my heart as I devote myself to You. Guide and protect me always on my journey.
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Fear, Change, and UPG

Glorious Mother Hekate, I come to You again with my vulnerability, as I have committed myself to sharing all that I am... even when I would prefer not to. Other humans have trained it into me to hide those parts of myself. Untraining that is hard work. I am willing to do it.  You know what the current situation is in my house, and You know why there always seems to be a "current situation". I think part of why I don't like asking Immortal Ones to intervene is just that - I can't promise things will be avoided next time. Most of these things are definitely avoidable. I just don't have the authority to do it. I feel like other people will keep putting me in the position of needing to ask for help again and again, and it just doesn't feel right. And I don't want to come across as selfish. So I hope, but I don't ask. I can't take much more of this, though, Mother. I have fear about what will happen in the cold months. I have fear about relationships be...
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