Virtual Hekatesion

This is a virtual space. I chose it for being a liminal space. Here, yet not here. Changes can be made to this space, but I do not edit my prayers. The fact that I have prayed stands, no matter what may or may not change.  But I recognize I have been limiting myself in my prayer, Mother. One of the things I have thanked Your for Your guidance in is my working to be more open and vulnerable with You. Working to get past limiting things to formal praise. There is much to be praised about You! I would say, and have said, that Your very existence is worthy of praise! But I'm not really honest about who I am when that's all I give. I've been back in that state in which I feel guilty if I think I'm complaining too often. I probably wouldn't tell You how the bully hurts me if things weren't at that really awful point again. If I didn't feel like she's breaking me. And I recognize that having to have things be at that point before I tell You means I'm holdin...

I keep working the bottle, but I need Your help with this, Mother.  Take away her lack of care for the needs of others. Take away her addiction. Take away her cruelty. Take away her avoidance of responsibility. Take away her manipulation. Take away the things she uses to harm others. But don't just take them away and leave nothing. Replace them with understanding of her actions and commitment to do better. Replace them with learning to love herself. To truly love herself! Not just what she claims. I want to say I can't continue with this pain and torment, but I know I actually could. My ability to survive is legendary. But we all deserve better. Even her. And as the cruelty has come from her, the "better" must come through her. Learning will hurt her, but she brought that on herself. And it isn't the pointless pain if she learns from it.

Again, with the bully. Mother, before I tell You what has my stomach in nots again - what brought on pain and tears tonight - first, I want to tell You what I'm thankful for. There have been hard days recently. Days when I could barely pull myself out of bed. Days when the thought of doing more than getting dressed overwhelmed me. I haven't been able to do things exactly the way I wanted to every day, but even on those days I have made space for devotional time, even when it took some deviation from the normal routine. I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for the strength in my relationships with You and Others. I'm thankful for still having that time together.  I'm thankful for the solution that will be here soon for the problem with the physical stability of the shrine. I will do the work to fix it, and I pray it is the right solution.  I am thankful for getting the work done to make the holiday gift that is most important to me to make. I'm thankful for th...

Praise to Mother Hekate!  I have thanked You in private - as well as Hermes, Sobek, and the Mighty and Beloved Ancestors - but I also want to give You praise and thanks here. This virtual temple may not be public in the sense of being a place of public interaction and events, but it is available for the public to observe. I want to give You that public recognition, Mother. I went to You in despair, and You have guided me and unlocked things for me. Torchbearer! Keeper of the Keys! My devotion is forever Yours. I made that agreement with You in a different way than I have made agreements with other Immortal Ones. There is no requirement from You for me to continue that devotion. And still, You bless me and guide me!  Thank You, Mother!

Khaire Mother Hekate!  It was my intention to come to You tonight only with praise and gratitude. My daily devotional practice is opening new doors for me. I am growing in how I can express my devotion, honor the Ancestors, and how I understand these relationships. I'm starting to see that I did not lose my connection with Hermes. It shifts, and grows stronger in some ways. I have trusted You to guide me, and You have raised Your torches to light the path. Thank You, Mother! There are days when I look at my gratitude and I see that I am grateful just for being able to be so grateful! That's what I wanted to take this time to say to You for most of the day. A conversation this evening added a concern that I need to bring to You. My stomach is in knots and I feel rage building inside myself. Please help me, Mother. You know there is a member of our family who is a bully. She gets away with things because she keeps other members of the family afraid of what she might do in retalia...

Mother Hekate, I am still confused about what is happening. I don't know if I'm doing things the right way. I don't know where the boundaries are. I remind myself when I worry about it that I may not see the path, but I do trust You to guide me.  The idea of getting a different view of the water has led me to some interesting research. I'm learning things about the Mediterranean Sea that fit with other ideas in ways that make sense. Trying to research some of those ideas hasn't led me to more information yet, and that includes not finding anything that counters or disproves those ideas. Some of this is so ancient that I know I may have to accept there being no documentation to support or counter these ideas. What I worry about most is not knowing where the boundaries are when it comes to serving You versus serving other Immortal Ones. Boundaries were shown to me with Hermes. That seems funny when I think about it, but also teaches a lesson. He is often talked about ...